I'm going complain and vent and be pathetic in here, because no one can tell me what to do in here.

Tell me how a person can give birth to four children and then as soon as her youngest turns 12 she says ok I dont need to be here.Seriously all this so called mother does is go out an drink an sleep with random people an depends on her 20yr old daughter to take care of her and her two younger children.But this is a person who is a RN an thinks shes the worlds greatest parent.For example not that long ago I decided I'd go visit my best friend who happens to be the 20yr old, when I get there thinking her mom was there so she could spend some time with her grandchild while I was there.But no she was a bar across town completely waisted to where she looked like a mentally challenge person.her boyfriend came back home an was upset cause she wouldnt come home with him an told him she hates him an that shes sleeping with another man and loves that man, blah blah, So her daughter calls her and we decided to go get her.She refused to get in my car unless I promised to take her to her lovers house so I said ok, I got her in the car locked the doors an told her she was stupid an I was taking her home.When we got her home she pissed her pants and couldnt go up the stairs.While she was doing all this my friend was taking care of her 13 yr old brother and trying to make it comfortable for him, This woman trys pawning off her two young children off on family members, her youngest daughter goes to her Aunts house as much as possible to get away.mean while my friend is on probation an isnt even supposed to be at her mothers but her mother uses everything against her to get what she wants.I want to open my mouth so bad but I cant, I couldnt do that to my friend.How can anyone like that call them selves a Mother or a RN? This woman has done so much to hurt these kids emotionally, it makes me sick.

I look into my oldest daughters eyes and I see such and innocence only a child could have, I see such happiness that only a child could have.When I look into her eyes I see the love she has for us and her sister, it's hard to believe such a little person could love so much.He doesn't think she knows half of what she does, he thinks its impossible for her too.Granted my oldest is going to be 2 on July 23rd.She is so smart, she doesn't like to listen to him or I or anyone for that matter, but shes at that age. The terrible two's they call it, he doesnt believe in that.He thinks if she knows what "No" means and knows how to say all the words she does, then she should listen.But its not that simple, We have to teach her to listen but he thinks he knows everything.He's never been around children, he wasn't really around his younger brother and sisters.They're a bad example anyway, there mother really isn't what I would call "Mother of the year".She turned her back on him when his father walked out on her and his one sister.I just wish he could see what I see in our daughter, shes amazing.I look forward to her growing and learning and making her own mistakes.Her and her sister are all I have to live for.Everyday is a new adventure with Ren, even though I dont get enough sleep or have the energy for her I still look forward to waking up with her.I ask myself every morning what will she learn today.I just love every little thing about her, how could I give birth to such an amazing person?